Rawr. Went for coach training today. Was praying that we didnt have to use training room 1. But damn! Preview was like in TR3, and we shifted to TR1. I was right. The fear I've been dreading, the fear I've been thinking of, the fear that I've feared would affect me, did affect me. And badly. I remember taking my bag, shifting to TR1, and i pushed open the glass door. First thing i see is the front door of TR1 open. Thats when the memories flashed back, instantly, and i think about all that has happened, and im thinking.. What the hell happened to me? What the hell is happening? Im losing control? Anyway, I vaguely remember that i stood at the door of TR2 for a few moments, just staring into blank space. Vividly remembering that day, that night, that moment when i was so stupid to look back.


Why was i so stupid. Why why why.